What was I thinking?

that I should potty train both Abby and Nathan at the same time?

What was I thinking? when I decided caroling would be a good idea in the rain?

What was I thinking? when I invited 3 more children over for joyschool on top of the 5 I already had?

What was I thinking? putting up a christmas tree just for the kids?

What was I thinking? spending hours cleaning my house only to enjoy it for a few moments?

What was I thinking? making a wholesome dinner that even I had to gag down?

What was I thinking? reading the birth of our Savior to my children several times this season while they are running around like wild Indians?

Well....I'm not sure. But I hope I was thinking......

- that although I've been changing a lot of potty messes, they're both going to get it soon and my life will be so much easier!
- that my children will love this tradition as much I did with my family growing up. (and so far, I think they do!)
- that my children would enjoy more children at the house, no matter how chaotic it was and that the mothers of those children would enjoy a little quiet time to themselves.
- that my children might understand that it is their excitement at Christmas time that truly makes me happy and that all this "stuff" is not as important to me as they are.
- becuase even if I can't possibly keep my house as clean as I want it at every second, they can see what a truly happy mother is when her house is in order.
- that perhaps I can instill in my children's minds the importance of eating healthy and sometimes (deffinately not always) mom's experiments with healthy cooking is just plain gross.
- and most importantly to me, that along with all the fun with receiving gifts from Santa Claus this year, they are catching on that Jesus really is what is most important and his birth, life, and death is our very greatest gift of all! Oh, I hope so much that they will get this in their life.

And that is what I was thinking.